I fell yesterday…
More like tripped, and my knees and hip hit the floor. This wouldn’t be all that serious cause I’m a big girl, y’all, but…but…I was holding someone I adore before the fall.
I was holding Judah in my arms as I lost my footing and fell down.
I got back up again, though, but as I rose something occurred to me. Something that has set this brazen heart more free…
Right after regaining my footing, thankful I hadn’t injured myself or baby Judah, my mind immediately recapped on the posture of my arms as I went
My hands were stretched, reaching upward so as to keep Judah from falling too. In fact, I embraced the fall. I had no thought about preserving self at all. I didn’t resist it once it began because I knew that my goal was to hold up him. You see, there was one thing that occupied my mind:
Make sure baby Judah is fine.
Jesus once said that out of the overflow of the heart, the mouth speaks. I contend that the posture of one’s hands also teach. (Matthew 25:31-46)
It teaches us what’s truly in our hearts as well.
So what did my reach teach me when I fell?
I love him.
“I love you,” is my lip’s daily refrain, followed by each of these beloved names: I love you, Andrew. I love you, Ariella. I love you, Judah. The sentiments come deep from my heart. They’re not mere lip service. I’m not playing an actress’ part.
Out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks, it’s true, and the hands also reach…reach to show the “I love you.”
I regained my course with startled son in arms, thankful that he nor I was harmed. I then stepped into the dark hallway with this bright revelation coursing through my mind:
I love my son, but Jesus love for him AND me is so much more sublime.
He fell, so that we might rise…rise above the works of the thief, who came to destroy and tell us lies.
Abundance is what Jesus died for us to possess. A life of abundance in His Holy rest.
Abundance of righteousness, peace, joy…provision, healing, abundance of hope, and grace…abundance of restoration as we seek His holy face.
YES, abundance of His LOVE because He willingly fell, snatching back the keys of death from the pits of hell.
I hate to bring this back to me, but to drive home this analogy…
And so will you…
…because in this fallen world we were meant to fall. It’s our sway. We are bent. Generations of iniquities have left an indelible dent.
He came into flesh to take the greatest fall, so we can rise above it all.
Oh, it was difficult indeed. God in man’s flesh endured the spit, the mockery, the crown of thrones. He felt the pain as they chanted His blame, the blood seaping from where His body was torn…
And yet as He fell into the deepest sleep, He reached out his nail pierced hands, echoing what His heart still speaks:
“Forgive them Father for they know not what they do.” (Luke 23:34)
He fell with us individually in mind, you see. He fell because of His foreseeable JOY…that by faith in His blood we’d claim HIS victory.
He was willing to fall so that we might rise. He reached out His hands with love in His eyes. Before He did He said we’d have troubles in this fallen world but we must take heart.
He too “got back up again” so we could do our part.
Our role, as with Judah, was to surrender to His embrace. It’s in His arms of love that we rise because He fell in our place. And then once we do, it’s time to bring Heaven down. We destroy the works of the enemy because JESUS “ain’t” in the ground.
This realization came on a difficult, difficult day. He showed me some junk in my heart, but not without redirecting my gaze. He brought my mind back to the time that I fell as I lifted Judah up. He said, I did much more for you Marissa by drinking the bloody cup.
So as I bask deeper in the reality that HE took my fall, this big girl loves Him so much deeper and once again surrenders all.
I let go. I let go. I let go of those soulish things. I let go so I too may rise because to His loving Cross I cling.
I’m not concerned that you have fallen. I am concerned that you arise. ~ Abraham Lincoln
Then I left my home to meet a friend, seeing her through “risen” eyes.
She is the healed!
“Therefore, since Christ has suffered for us in the flesh, arm yourselves likewise with the same mind, for he who has suffered in the flesh has ceased from sin, so that he no longer should live the rest of his time in the flesh serving human desires, but the will of God.”
1 Peter 4:1-2 MEV