“Last,” but Never Alone

I was last.

Dead last.

Oh, and I saw it coming!

One more sprint and I would be done like the rest. I was so incredibly tempted to cheat and call it my “personal best.”

Besides, I’m the one counting my own reps, right? Who would know?

I would! And so, no! I would go.

I would run, and

they would…wait.

Day two and I had our “Stroller Rollers” mommas waiting…on me…to finish…”late.”

They were about to move on without me…

until our incredibly fit, pregnant instructor…dispelled insecurity.

Me (left) Mallory and her baby bump (right)

You know what’s more?

She put her feet pedals to the floor.

Our leading momma ran alongside, helping me to sprint past insecurity’s pride.

I’ll be back!

(Hahaha, that is probably why I came back for day three. Stroller Rollers has been good for the outer AND inner me.

Yep, I kept wanting more, which brings me to Stroller Roller day 4)

Click the image below to check out Stroller Rollers in Spartanburg.

I was last…yet…again! This time would insecurity win?

DISC personality test says I’m one of the least competitive/dominaneering people you’ll find. Of course, that’s only when I’m in my joyful state of mind! 😊

But dead last…AGAIN!?!🤦🏾‍♀️

Lord, help me pick up my drooping chin. 😔

And so He did…

Better than Yesterday

as if she knew…

Stroller Rollers momma, Candice, spoke what’s true:

Candice and her gorgeous green-eyed gem (left)

Between cardio-intensive plié’s she said she’d been attending for a year. She frankly confided that she could not run the center’s lap–with not an ounce of insecure fear.

Then she dropped a wisdom bomb:

“If I compare myself to where I started I’ve come a long way.”

What transparency.

What humility!

WHAT WISDOM from that WORKOUT QUEEN that day!

Queen Candice (left) and I (right)

I couldn’t agree more…as my 6-week postpartum self nearly collapsed to the floor.

(Okay, okay! I’m being dramatic, but still…

Now onward to my revelatory reveal!)

In life I’ve come a long way!

Not her way.

Not YOUR way.


The journey of my life had been hard and long. I look back on different aspects to see what’s made me strong:

Though seemingly dead “last,” I’ve NEVER been left ALONE!

As with Mallory, pregnant with purpose, God’s heart is pregnant with His plans for me.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord,”plans to prosper you and to not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

Jeremiah 29:11

He sees what I at times don’t have clear eyes to see.

“For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.”

Isaiah 55:9

He sees the temptation to compare my life to someone else’s “sprint,” and He sprints with me, inviting me to change my mind–


I run, no, WE run. TOGETHER!

I mustn’t look to the left or right because HIS presence propels above life’s stormy weather.

I’m like an eagle, and His Spirit the wind beneath my wings. He carries me above the challenges and propels my soul to praise–to sing.

“but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”

Isaiah 40:31

By human accounts I may be last, but in Him I’m never alone. So instead of comparing my sprint to my “stroller sisters'” or even a stranger, I bellow my own praise song:

🎶 Psalm 34🎶 – a Psalm for each year of my life

In life I may be last by all worldly accounts, but Lord, You give me Heaven’s 20/20.

WE’VE come a long, hard distance…and when I look back it’s been a road marked VICTORY!

“That is what the Scriptures mean when they say, “No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him.” But it was to us that God revealed these things by his Spirit. For his Spirit searches out everything and shows us God’s deep secrets.”

1 Corinthians 2:9-10

Indeed life IS tough! Let’s STOP comparing because In God’s love we are enough!

31What shall we say about such wonderful things as these? If God is for us, who can ever be against us? 32Since he did not spare even his own Son but gave him up for us all, won’t he also give us everything else? 33Who dares accuse us whom God has chosen for his own? No one—for God himself has given us right standing with himself. 34Who then will condemn us? No one—for Christ Jesus died for us and was raised to life for us, and he is sitting in the place of honor at God’s right hand, pleading for us.

35Can anything ever separate us from Christ’s love? Does it mean he no longer loves us if we have trouble or calamity, or are persecuted, or hungry, or destitute, or in danger, or threatened with death? 36(As the Scriptures say, “For your sake we are killed every day; we are being slaughtered like sheep.”o) 37No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us.

38And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,p neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. 39No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Romans 8:31-39

Don’t look to the left or the right, but look in the mirror and up to God. He is the Shepherd of your soul who strengthens with His staff and comforts with His rod.

1 The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing. 2 He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, 3 he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake. 4 Even though I walk through the darkest valley,I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. 5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. 6 Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

Psalm 23:1-6

The thief comes only to steal, kill and destroy…but through the highs and lows of life may we find His strength…HIS everpresent joy!

The joy of His presence will set our souls at peace. Perhaps in being “last” I realized that He never leaves!

Perhaps in being last, I learned to lean on the one who sits…walks, sprints this life…with me.

Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

James 1:2-4

Friend, you may feel “last” but you’re never alone.

With the joy of the Lord you lack nothing, because His presence will make you strong.

“I have told you these things so that you will be full of My joy. Yes, your joy will overflow.” ~ JESUS

John 15:11

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I am a passionate Jesus disciple, wife, mother, teacher, friend who's life mission is to "Reveal Christ to the lost, spur on the saints, and serve as a beckon of freedom through the edifying images I paint." My pen is my paintbrush, and words are my artistry. I plan to use them both to inspire us to live JoyfullyAlive, because WE WERE MADE TO THRIVE! "These things I have spoken to you, that my joy may be in you, and that your joy may be full." ~ Jesus (John 15:11)

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